better days

sometimes things just suck. things have been really good lately, and they still are. but that doesnt mean that something isnt going wrong. im really grateful for what i have, no doubt. and i think that im a very lucky person. but i feel like i cant catch a break sometimes. it feels like the second things start going good, something or someone decided to ruin it. only a few people know what im talking about, and i dont want to make it super public so, i'll spare the details. but, its safe to say that, i am sad at the moment. ive lost a few good friends, i feel like ive been used, and thats only the beginning. sure, i had a good few weeks. i met some new people, and im so grateful for it. i dont want to be a drama queen and say that i wish i had never met them, because im glad i did. they actually changed my life a lot. i think im a better person because they set such a good example for me. but, it hurts. i felt loved for the first time in a long time and, its gone. just like that. no explanation, no apologies. its just.... gone. im sure none of you think that i am making any sense. but rest assured, i am. you just dont know it.
anyways. i can tell that things are going to be different. it sucks. but i just have to get used to it.